This caption is a tad short, so let me throw some extra words on here for the long time readers of this blog. If you’re here for the first time, go on, skip down the page a bit and thanks for visiting.
So, after my last post, which came following an unannounced hiatus of over a year, I had a couple folks ask if I was officially quitting, or coming back full-force, or something. My comment was a tad vague. The reason for my absence was fairly typical, I reckon. TG is a hobby of mine that I’ve explored primarily as a sexual thing. A fetishized thing. While I have always made an effort with my captions to keep things fairly PG, (not-porn, as I jokingly refer to it) I’m well aware of what most of you out there are probably using my works to do. I’m the same.
I started doing captions because I wanted to fill certain niches for myself that I wasn’t getting satisfied by in the works of others. This is all well and good, but when my needs are being satisfied elsewhere, the creative juices are placed in a sock on the floor instead of on the computer screen, and I don’t release any new captions for a year straight. I still enjoy doing them, but I don’t like to release things just for the sake of releasing them. Some of my least favorite captions that I’ve created were ones I pumped out just because I liked a picture, but didn’t have a story for it, or that I made just to keep a schedule. I look back at those captions with embarrassment, especially when those works are the ones that tend to generate the most traffic. So I opt to post nothing instead of captions I had no inspiration for (even though the grand majority of you reading this do not give a flying fuck about my creative processes or integrity.)
So, after a year out of the game, I’ve come back with a few captions. Things are a little different now, though. I’m coming to terms with and trying to educate and explore my identity as a transgender person. Things are kind of changing for me emotionally, and I’m beginning to think and view things from perspectives I had deliberately distanced myself from in the past. I’m scared, confused and unsure of what my next moves will be, but I’m very optimistic for what the future may hold for me as I’m a little more honest with who I am as a person. This is all new to me, so I won’t bore you with sob stories and blah, blah. Let’s get into how this relates to you and this blog you’ve somehow stuck with after it was dead for a year.
I intend to continue making captions as the urge to create them arises, but this has always been a very personal art for me. Feelings, thoughts and desires expressed in these captions are things I had never really intended to share with anyone aside from an anonymous mass. My perceptions of TG and all this stuff is changing. I’ve already noticed a change in my mental process to approaching these most recent captions opposed to my older ones, and I can only imagine the changes to come will become more dramatic. I’m changing as a person, and my captions are likely to change with me. Prior to now, I wrote as someone who was repressed, and now I’m trying to come at you as a someone far more honest and accepting of who I am. My hope is that anyone in a similar boat might find some emotional resonance as I get deeper into the rabbit hole myself.
So thanks to everyone who’s stuck with this blog, or even bothered to read this horribly out-of-character-to-this-site, blog post. Here’s the caption I promised.